New One

a lover from the southside
he had a swagger so mean that his contact
upset the natural order of things

never wanted to crowd him,

you just wanted to be around him
sometimes his eyes hung so low you could barely tell that they were open
but you could feel him looking at you
his gaze was so sharp, so fierce, so sensual that it made you blush
like he was trying to see into your soul or something
and when he spoke
his voice caressed my being and making cheese me uncontrollably
I swear, my smile always made it there before me
he’s that guy
the one that your mother, big brother and anyone else that cared
warned you to stay away from
the one who makes you warm and tingly inside when he talks
makes the whole room stop when he walks
in
your smile disappears when he leaves
life ceases to be the same when you don’t talk to him
you know
the one that you want so bad
love so hard
but he treats you like shyt
however, just the thought of the recurring presence
his affection turns you into a trembling recovering junkie
who has given into that one last hit
hoping that this time won’t leave you
tapped out, losing weight, with bags under your eyes
with a love hangover
a blues gone hard
from jonesing so hard
over someone that you once thought slipped away
only to realize that his heart was something
that you never had